My weight is coming down nicely. Im at 108.4kgs so far. Hardly trying at all. Im not going to enter the dates anymore The feelings of dread and fear move in up and down, its likely because i feel helpless
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18th February 2025 I don't know what to do, the only thing I am doing right now is worrying about my position in OMH, repeatedly checking SCMP for latest news on the China market, and trying to find information on relating to my position in OMH. It's an absolute nightmare. Life is made up of choices, I need an agenda. So what agenda do I need? I need to find a job and exercise. Just did 41 push ups. There is nothing I can do about the OMH situation. Over thinking may lead me to sell early. However I don't know what to do about this company. I hope things improve, but I don't know what to do. I can't help but worry. I just got a call from MUFG about the corporate banking job. She talked awhile then she put down the phone. I don't know how well I did. I will wait for awhile. She mentioned that the worry is I leave.
16th february 2025 I dont really want to go to church tomorrow. No energy to do anything. I am going to start my diet today. First weigh in is tmr, but i am at 110.8 kgs right now. The real estate recovery in china os taking longer than i expected. Dad overextended and put a lot into the company. I am so worried...
I found some older photos' of me. As I grow older, the trajectory in my life doesn't seem so good. Somehow or another I just wish to have some photos' of myself in the past. It wasn't always this bad. That photo of me in the coat was taken by Bing Bing. After a tiring day at work. I need to work on my weight loss to get back. Also my push ups. Thats Chris, Erica, and Ardis, surprising that short Penang trip left so many memories because of the pictures. I wish I had more of this. Gabriel is there as well.
11th february 2025 I havent really been productive, I am looking at the January sales of some of the china developers to judge whether the market is coming back. The financially weak developers r recording drops in sales, but the financially strong developers r reporting higher sales. Vanke, a financially weak company has lower sales by 43%. COLI and a few other developers r recording higher sales. The market seems to be improving, but its gradual.
10th February 2025 My worry is slowly starting to level off. I suspect it has to do with going on the PC and playing some games, I don't like playing them anymore, but its like a balm. Which I don't know whether it is a good thing or not. I don't have much else to do though. My investments really need time to pan out, OMH really did me good. The management is incompetent, the worse part is that they don't seem to admit that there has been a lot of mistakes that have been done in the past. Cyrex/Leong said he would come back to me this week, his on leave until Wednesday, I hope I get the job. Something to struggle for, at the very least the looming sense of doom will leave me.
8th february 2025 Omh seems to be coming back, as the silicomanganese prices recently spiked to 7300 rmb per tonne. However it is likely that it will be temporary as the steel prices and the property market in china has not improved yet. Im feeling better as of late, but I hope things turn out well, the chinese real estate market seems to be coming back. I hope the steel market improves in tandem. I did well in the interview, it was for the position of sme relationship manager at ambank.
5th february 2025 I have an interview later in Midvalley at 3pm for ambank sme relationship manager. I just realized, dad doesnt have enough money for retirement, much less the earnings so support myself. I can't continue living the life I am living right now. I need to continue applying for jobs, or, I can drive grab in the interim to support myself. I really need OM Holdings to come back in a strong way to support myself.