Daily Journal

1st february 2025  Watching Mohnish Pabrai videos. Im watching from the first videops. Up until nov 2019, boston college. Going to populate my finance blog with some of his ideas. Q&A Session with Francis Chou at Harvard - April 7, 2020 Cvr partners fertilizer company Moutai Family dinner at 7pm.

 Lunch at the Han Room

 29th January 2025 Had dinner with the family last night. The conversation with Uncle Ming Keat made me realize. If things got really bad, I am certain he wont be there for me. And I've come to realize that I like him less and less as I grow older. He probably doesnt care. This operation they ran on me destroyed my life. Who am I going to go to? This could have been so much worse. 9:43pm Another dinner.

 28th january 2025 I went to hang out with Thomas, somehow i feel awkward. Talked a bunch. I am thinking about starting a youtube channel. Talking about investments. The sme relationship manager at ambank got postponed to after cny. Thinking to write about cmsb.

 25th january 2025 Everytime I take a good look at my situation, I get nervous. Its only when I'm nervous that I come to this blog. I don't know what to do. I have an interview coming on monday for sme relationship manager for Ambank. I hope I get it. Its close to the new branch of cathay united bank. Winnie is going to be around there. Which makes me a little nervous. Silicomanganese prices are moving up, i hope the increase is sustainable. Its higher than ferrosilicon now. Just remembered watermech. Maybe can approach them when i join the sme.

 23 january 2025 Watching something about Nasubi, something like the Truman show. Is it like my situation? It was just as inhuman.

 Photo of me with Chee Peng

 22nd january 2025 I have so much free time. Its the opposite for when I was working, I'm going to integrate some weight lifting into my free time.  Just did 30 pushups, feel good now. 7:27pm Just had a duck dinner, didn't overeat. Going to church soon. 9:13pm, At church, I am listening to a sermon. Wondering what it would be like if I had to give such a sermon. Where am I going with this. 10:26pm I was thinking during the sermon, the opportunity to carry a burden, rather than the obligation to, the context changes my viewpoint so much.

 21st january 2025. 5:32pm Its getting late, I did a little exercise after that fat pic on the 18th. I think I shall be controlling my food and getting my sleep back in order. Take a pic, after dinner. Weight is 112kgs. 22:19pm Lately ive started understanding why it is people would want to go on road trips. Something I could not understand last time. I had more interestings to do.

 18th january 2025 The more i think about the interview, the less convinced i am that i will get through. That guy was giving me micro looks of angry i think. Wonder why. 1:59 pm "Stop thinking about life, it is made up of actions", i need an agenda. This is from youtube shorts. 21:15pm Going to start taking daily pictures. Im a lot fatter than i feel.

 17th january 2025. I just completed my interview with planworth global factoring. I suspect i am not confirmed, but i cant be certain. Dont feel much except some minor disappointment.

 15th january 2025 tuesday 2:58pm Went to old town for awhile, mom was talking about some rm 30k from lh classidor she paid then last time. I think dad didnt pay the full debt to them. So its just a net off. According to dad. I have an interview coming on friday and next monday. Monday talk is with cimb pj newtown. 11am as well Thursday career talk, friday interview in the morning, thomas meetup in the evening, monday morning interview for cimb position.

 2:22pm 9th january 2025 I just got back from the interview. I think I am going to start taking pictures of myself and slowly weight lift. It was from findit, same company as Watsons 

 Its Monday, here I am worrying about my future. The HR person was there and i asked her how hard is it to get back into work. She said just explain what i was doing in the 8 years while i was pursuing my investments. So i do have an avenue to actually get back into work life. Just noticed that the posts update to the latest date. So even if it did a post 3 days ago, if i update it today. It is dated today by the system. I seriously wonder where am I going to be in life. 4:28pm Just got an interview with Global Planworth factoring. 11am friday. 17th januray 2025

 In Church with Thomas, there is so many talks. The Church is having its 6 year anniversary. I am wondering whether I should join the talk for the graduates. Im 15 years from campus graduation.

 I really need to hold my head together and treasure the things i have now. I dont know if it will continue being there when I grow older and older. I will call Uncle Pinson later. When i feel down, i really feel down. But when i start walking and talking the feelings take a backseat. I am so worried about my future. 2:18pm Just came back from uncle Pinsons place. Feel slightly better now.

 3:18pm I am just in such a dump right now. A really down feeling. I keep thinking about omh and the mistake i made. What if i am wrong and the market doesn't come back? I sure hope that doesn't happen. I just did my online interview with Jeremy for trunk consulting. The way he described it is good. They want one place to store all their financing decisions, writing the will, insurance, investments. All in one so that the person doesn't have to deal with multiple people. I hope I get it. The job. The life i am living now is not a good one, its worse than the life i lived when i was younger, growing older is worrying.

 8:25am Went out for my daily walk with dad today. Going to meet Kevin to talk about the solar company. From Alfatronics. Just spoke with Kevin. Apparently I can introduce myself as someone from Alfatronics, also, he was approached by someone who said they could supply one case a day for solar installations at home. However, I don't understand how this will pan out. Perhaps I should shoot first and fond out later. I will start calling tomorrow.

7:31am  Its tuesday 7:31am I'm listening to some music and thinking of what job I should be applying to and how it all went so wrong. I'm applying to a company called bjak.com for the post of senior analyst. I was thinking of some songs and turned on finale by eill. A song, I can't describe how it feels. The month I spent in port dickson to calm myself down. Not speaking or saying anything for a month. Its buried into me with this song. The abandoned apartment i wound up staying in. The quiet and the night lights. Its wound so deeply, just the music brings out all sorts of feelings in me. 2:42pm I just gave in to my cravings. Went out and got a samosa and chicken puff, also went out for a chocolate sundae. As I was wondering how easy i lost willpower, i decided to do x60 bent over rows. Maybe i need 3 exercises that go x60 a day. Kettlebell swings, bent over rows and arm curls? Im going to get some sleep after this 

 Skipped a few days of blog posts. Which is perfectly normal. I have an interview with Doo group for the position of corporate banking analyst in an hours time. Omh seems to be gaining some traction, as chinas real estate market is coming back 

 2am I've just responded to the job posting of account manager for property guru. The questions were very odd. How much sales have I done etc etc. Property guru has 63% market share, its mostly account management. As per jobstreet ad and my understanding of the position. Ill try and get in first.

 12:33am 2nd of january. I am going to add x50 bent over rows everyday. Slowly increase. My right forearm hurts. Stopped at x90 last time. Just weighed myself, 112.6kgs. Did 28 push ups and 22 push ups. So x50 pushups. x55 bent over rows Went out for a walk. 10pm Just got up and ate dinner. The exercises really help me control my food pangs. I have to incorporate them to control my cravings. Still quite sleepy, will take a nap. Jobstreet, must have put in several hundred applications.